A bunch of useless crap
Published on December 7, 2005 By MasonM In Blogging
Yep, I am one of "those folks" who get depressed this time of year. I guess I am solar powered. The days are shorter this time of year, and somehow I always feel depressed this time of year.

No, it isn't the holidays, I couldn't care less.

Perhaps it's the fact that when the daylight ends much earlier I tend to sit at home thinking more. Somehow, that isn't very reassuring, as I have always considered thought a good thing. Ok, maybe thinking about the "wrong" things. Well, ok, maybe. But they're my things.

This is always the time of year that I am closest to just blowing my brains out and hoping for the best. Probably not a coincidence that my father did exactly that in early January many years ago. I think we're solar powered. Somehow, the less sunlight we receive, the less good we feel. Maybe that's why I live in Florida. Maximum sunlight.

Ok, this isn't a fishing trip for positive replies. Just putting down my somewhat less than sober thoughts at a time when I am feeling less than happy with the general nature of the universe while I listen to the rain fall in the dark.

Comments
on Dec 08, 2005

I hear you Mason.

Depression, no matter what the cause, is one of those insidious things that can cause you to do things you really shouldn't do. And those things can seem so logical and necessary at the time.

There are supposed to be things you can do to combat this, like special light-bulbs that mimic the sunlight. I don't know much about those, but it might be helpful to get one. I don't know, maybe tanning beds mimic sunlight? Might be worth looking into, even though you may not care about the tan.

I hope you feel better and have the chance to get some sun.

on Dec 08, 2005
Yeah I've heard they have sunlight bulbs and such. Sunlight deprivation syndrome seems to be pretty common, or maybe it's just the winter season in general. These short days, getting dark way too early, are a bummer.
on Dec 08, 2005

I guess I am fungi!  I like the closeness that a cloudy winter day brings.  It is like the earth is wrapping you in her arms.  And the short days of the year are great for me since I love the holiday lights, and you kind of need darkness for them.  I guess I am just an easily pleased person.

And if you love sunlight, move to Yuma Arizona!  They get about 3 days of rain per year.  And wear light clothing, it may be dry heat, but 120 is still HOT!

on Dec 08, 2005
Dry heat. An oven is dry heat.
on Dec 09, 2005
I know you're not looking for positive encouraging comments, I just wish that
we could all form an imaginery "((((((((hug))))))))))) line around you and keep you ok.

winter IS difficult, no matter where one is.

If you want to talk, my email is on my blog, just click on "my personal page"

on Dec 09, 2005
Thanks Trudy, I'm cool. Just hate these short days. Been cloudy and wet the past few days too, which makes it all even more....yuk. Guess maybe I really am solar powered