A bunch of useless crap
Published on January 11, 2009 By MasonM In Blogging

This cold bug has been pretty rough. I think that spending some down time in this motel was probably the best thing I could have done right now.

As the room has a mini-fridge and microwave, I went to the grocery yesterday and stocked up on enough food and Gatorade to last me my stay here. This both saved me some money as opposed to eating out, as well as saving me the effort of going out to eat thus maximizing my rest. I've been drinking a lot of Gatorade to try and stay hydrated.

While I am still coughing and have to blow my nose every few minutes, and still feel like crap in general, I am feeling a bit more rested now and somewhat stronger.

Also with the holiday season behind me, and trying to get back into a more normal routine after my mother's death, I'm not feeling quite as depressed as I had been. Not great yet, but a little better in that department.

With all of the negative shit going on in my life it was just too overwhelming. I decided that the best thing I can do is to stop worrying about it all and try to just take things as they come. There is just so much a person can do, and a lot of it is simply outside of my control anyway. Whatever happens, happens.

At least for now, the remainder of today and tonight, I am concentrating simply on resting as I think that's the one thing my body needs the most right now.


Comments
on Jan 11, 2009

Good thing, about getting the rest and having a brief downtime!  Sometimes as you say, all you can do is nothing!  Tomorrow will take care of itself, my mom used to tell me!

on Jan 11, 2009

Good that you got to rest.  Keep up the good outlook on things

on Jan 11, 2009

foreverserenity
Good thing, about getting the rest and having a brief downtime!  Sometimes as you say, all you can do is nothing!  Tomorrow will take care of itself, my mom used to tell me!

M-Post
Good that you got to rest.  Keep up the good outlook on things

Thanks.

on Jan 11, 2009

Old biker proverb (and I'm sure it would be a good one for truckers too): sometimes the fastest way to get there is to stop for the night. And I keep hearing the same thing in a kinda-sorta way in the running community too -that rest is just as, if not more than, important than the leg work. Heh, so I guess the Good Lord knew what he was doing when he advised to rest one day in seven.

So enjoy the rest, take a deep breath, and let what you can't fix today go.

on Jan 11, 2009

sometimes the fastest way to get there is to stop for the night

Yep, have to agree with that. Thanks

on Jan 11, 2009

The day my mom died I thought I would never be the same again.  The grief was overpowering and some guilt there, too.  Most of my adult life I spent overseas or so far from San Diego it might as well have been overseas.  Hard to believe it has been 21 years since she passed.  The pain eventually eases and the grief and guilt and all the other baggage that goes with it will fade, some.  There are still things that will bring a tear to my eye, some silly thing that was just between her and me will cause me to choke up...usually when you least expect it.  But by and large, we survive it and hopefully just the good memories remain.  Get well, get rest, and let the grieving run its course.  Good thoughts and prayers are with ya.

on Jan 12, 2009

I'm glad you are doing a bit better there Mason. Hope your cold gets better as well. When my son was sick during the New Years Eve night, we gave him Codfish oil and it helped him out a lot. Got back on his feet a a day or 2, of course we gave him medicine as well but never seen it work that fast before.

Ironically, I too found myself just not worrying too much anymore and excepting what is happening to me. After all, I created the probelm and it's seems only fair to pay the price and take it like a man. I am doing a bit better myself, mentally, since rather than worrying about not being able to find a solution to my problems, I may as well just accept them and hope to do better next time around. Of course, it's not completely the same since it's just you and it's probably easier for you to deal with your problems while I have 2 small children which I can't allow to suffer for my mistakes.

But I will find a way out of this, I somehow always seem to. I would like to say things will get better and probably won't be lying, but I just don't think it will happen as fast as I would hope. But we all have to keep going either way. Good luck there.

on Jan 12, 2009

I have gone years without a damn cold, but not this one.  Crept up on me Friday, and really got me yesterday.  Hope yours is on the down side.  They dont kill you, just make you miserable.

on Jan 14, 2009

Feel better my friend, My heart and prayers are with you, may the grief you feel pass quickly and may your body heal quickly with as little difficulty as possible.

 

Elie

on Jan 14, 2009

Thanks folks. The cold has improved but stubbornly remains.