A bunch of useless crap
Published on December 16, 2008 By MasonM In Blogging

We buried Mom yesterday. Today was time for visiting amongst ourselves and to rest a bit. Tomorrow morning I'll be leaving back out on the road once again. Despite everything that's happened it's time for me to get back to work and trying to earn a living.

Being flat broke and unable to pay my bills or house payment is not fun and I have no choice but to get back to the business of working. My youngest brother and his wife left for their home in GA around noon today, and my next younger brother and his family will be leaving out tomorrow (his birthday) heading back to OH.

I have to go down to Bradenton and pick up a trailer that's parked there and then to Orlando to pick up a load heading to WI. I've spent the afternoon slowly packing up and preparing the house to be locked up once again. I have no idea when I'll be coming back again. Now that Mom is gone there's no real reason to return here for Christmas. I'll probably be gone at least a month this time.

I think that getting back to work will probably be better for me than continuing to sit around here anyway.


Comments
on Dec 16, 2008

I wish I had some words of wisdom for you.  My mom died October 20th this year, totally unexpectedly, and I still don't know how I will get through Christmas.  Working and being busy should help.  But it's been almost 2 months and still, even though on the surface things feel ok, there are times I just can't do it.  I miss her and it still kills me that I won't ever see her again.  I am not trying to get you down or make things harder - I just want to let you know that it's a process and I think it takes time and I don't know how long - but I want you to know that I do understand and that you and I will get through this - there are more good days than bad but I do think the bad days help with the whole grief process and just letting those feelings out helps... I don't know I am babbling it seems but my heart is with you.

Patricia

on Dec 16, 2008

trish da dish
I wish I had some words of wisdom for you.  My mom died October 20th this year, totally unexpectedly, and I still don't know how I will get through Christmas.  Working and being busy should help.  But it's been almost 2 months and still, even though on the surface things feel ok, there are times I just can't do it.  I miss her and it still kills me that I won't ever see her again.  I am not trying to get you down or make things harder - I just want to let you know that it's a process and I think it takes time and I don't know how long - but I want you to know that I do understand and that you and I will get through this - there are more good days than bad but I do think the bad days help with the whole grief process and just letting those feelings out helps... I don't know I am babbling it seems but my heart is with you.

Patricia

Thanks, sorry for your loss as well.

on Dec 16, 2008

As you get on the road again Mason please take care of yourself.  Winter, as you have told us, is a hard time for truckers with cold, snow, and bad traveling.  Eat hearty, drink well, and stop and see your friends along the way.  Knit up a storm and listen to good music.  We will be with you in our minds on your journey.  

 

judy

 

on Dec 16, 2008

As you get on the road again Mason please take care of yourself. Winter, as you have told us, is a hard time for truckers with cold, snow, and bad traveling. Eat hearty, drink well, and stop and see your friends along the way. Knit up a storm and listen to good music. We will be with you in our minds on your journey.

Well said.

on Dec 17, 2008

The holidays is when we feel the emptiness most of all.  I hope you get to spend the day at least in a familiar place with people you know.

Have a safe and productive trip this time out.

on Dec 19, 2008

Our condolences to you and your family.

I still miss my Mom, I guess I always will.

 

on Dec 20, 2008

Agreed that life after losing your mom is a process.  There will be some trying moments, but allowing yourself to experience those moments is what leads up to the healing moments. 

Good luck on the road M and take good care of yourself.