I spoke with my mother on the phone a bit ago. I can tell she's worried  about her surgery tomorrow although she's trying hard to not let it show. Same thing I would do. She gave me the phone number for the hospital and we talked a bit. I can tell.

I make a point of staying positive when talking to her but I suspect she can tell I am worried.

I know there's nothing that I can do that will affect the surgery one way or the other but I still wish I could be there.

Not being there for her is killing me.