Geez, what a curse! This was said to me after a slight altercation at a convenience store tonight involving myself and a guy who was trying to pick my pocket for the measly few bucks I had in my wallet. I caught the guy dead to rights and could have pounded him into oblivion but instead just grabbed his wrist and told him I didn't think there was anything in my back pocket that belonged to him. That's when he uttered his curse. As he ran out the door.
I am pretty sure that my spirit ( soul, whatever you care to call it) has suffered more than one death. Some of them, maybe all of them for all I know, were painful. I know without doubt that I have an "old soul", meaning that my soul has lived on this Earth for quite some time. Who knows how many lifetimes or manners of death it has experienced? I don't know. I will likely never know perhaps until it reaches it's final destination (Heaven?).
I do know that I have certain skills and knowledge that are "natural" to me that I haven't aquired in this lifetime although I have improved upon them. Genetic memory? That's possible and even likely. Previous lifetimes? Possible. although less demonstrable. I don't discount either possibility. I had progressed past basic mathematics and into algebra at the age of 7. Hey folks, I'm not that smart. I could use an abacus at the age of 5. It was natural to me.
Edged weapons come to mind when I think of these sorts of things. I have always had an empathy towards those who wielded a sword since I was a child. I took a fencing class when I was in college and excelled. It came as natural to me as if I had held a sword all of my life. While I am an expert with a firearm, I am still far more comfortable with a knife or a long blade and I have proven that I am deadly with them.
Some have told me I have a certain wisdom beyond my years. Perhaps. There are certain days when I feel far older than my earthly days. But I suspect everyone feels that way at times. I have had dreams in which I find myself wearing long robes and hooded cloaks. But I suspect everyone has similar sorts of dreams. I have also dreamed of myself flying so I must temper my thoughts with the knowledge that dreams are often just fantasy of the mind.
I live with the conviction of having lived on this Earth for a great many years but also having lived only a few short years. A wonderful paradox or a conundrum which can neither proved nor disproved.
Wherever the Truth lies, I accept it for what it is for I suspect that none of us mortals in this current lifetime truly undertsand the nature of the universe. I only know for certain that my current life is the one upon which I need focus.