A bunch of useless crap
This Sux
Published on May 9, 2005 By MasonM In Blogging
Every day I go through the local job ads hoping I can find something that is a) reasonable close enough for me to get to something that I can physically do.

This morning I went through 2199 job ads. Nada. Zilch. Zero. Between my lack of transportation for a job distant from me and the physical requirements of the jobs that are close enough, there is nothing.

I really wonder what the hell I'm going to do. Things are just not looking too hopeful. No money, no car, busted hip, no job. As Manopeace would say: Oy!

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on May 11, 2005
Mason, sometimes it is hard for you to feel justified in sitting around "doing nothing" as you say, although you are healing. It's hard for you because you're independent and you've always been out there supporting yourself. I totally understand where you're coming from and so, if I might speak for all of us here, so does everyone else who commented here.

The thing is you have to realize that sometimes you have no control over what happens to you. Maybe this is your time to sit back and take a break. Don't look at it as you being useless, look at it as this being your time to heal, you did go through a bad accident. You have to allow yourself to let go and just take one day at a time. I know you're trying to do that. And it's ok to have days when you feel really shitty and you don't want to hear anyone telling you shit. Hey that's ok too.

But listen to yourself, and know that (1) you have to heal; (2) you have to allow yourself to heal; (3) not working and not having any money of your own is a bitch; (4)were you to get a job right now, that would allow you to work even in the capacity that you're in now physically, would you really be able to do it (ok perhaps you could) but would you really be able to deal with it (no matter how much you want the money and to feel useful)day in day out and the stress that would place on your body that isn't 100%?

Your situation is not what you wanted right now and it's not of your own doing. You're a good man who doesn't only think of himself, which is obvious and that's possibly why you're at odds with yourself. Sometimes you just gotta let go and let the dominoes fall where they may (so to speak).

That said, it's up to you of course to do whatever you want and I would look into what the others said. There's nothing wrong with getting a little help sometimes and you might just be lucky the second time around! (I hope I didn't come off as preachy or condensending)
on May 11, 2005
It's hard for you because you're independent and you've always been out there supporting yourself.

You hit the nail on the head there.

The thing is you have to realize that sometimes you have no control over what happens to you.

Exactly what makes it so frustrating at times. I've always been one to attack problems head-on.

would you really be able to do it

Possibly not. I have considered that and it only adds to the frustration.

I hope I didn't come off as preachy or condensending

Not at all. You make some very good points.

LW, I understand what you're saying and appreciate the information. But my point basically boils down to the fact that I'm not really sure I even want it. I don't hold anything against anyone who is on SSI (or SSD) as both my mother and one of my younger brothers are on them. But, I would simply prefer to earn money on my own. It's just my way.

I'm not one to turn away help from someone as I have helped a good many people myself in the past, but I am just not ready to file for it from the government even though I did look into the possiblility early on. That's just me.
on May 11, 2005
Hang tough !!

BTW, us little used car lot guys are always lookin' for guys to either drive cars to and from auctions, baby sit the office, and generally help, aid, and assist...it don't pay much, but it's usually cash......

Good Luck !
on May 11, 2005
Hmmm Dynosaur, while I can't drive that does propose an interesting possibility. There's a used car lot right across the road from me. Maybe I'll hobble over and have a chat with them

Thanks for the thought.
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