I feeling pretty depressed now. It seems that everything is going wrong. I learned that my mother is dieing from lung cancer and is refusing any more treatment. She's at home with a hospice worker now. It truly breaks my heart that she won't have the chemo, but I do understand and respect her wishes. From what the doctor said it doesn't sound like it would really do much good anyway.

Thanks to the slow economy and trucking business I have a bunch of past due bills and bills coming due and won't see anything resembling a paycheck for another week and a half, by which time the other bills will be past due.

The turbo blew in my truck yesterday while driving through Iowa. I had to be towed into a garage to have that fixed. This morning as I did my walk around I discovered a flat tire and had to have that fixed. Now I am sitting in Eastern Iowa watching it snow. The roads are just too dangerous to travel with a light load. There are wrecked cars and trucks everywhere.

I passed one spot where a truck had lost control and gone over the side of a bridge and onto the road below. He hit it so hard it tore the wheels off the trailer and they were laying about a quarter mile up the road. He was obviously driving too fast for the conditions.

I know this is all just the stuff of life, but sometimes it all just seems to come at you all at once and is overwhelming. Ok, ok, I know I just whining here, so sue me.

Maybe I just need a stiff drink.